7 May 1981
Sometimes, when the Death Eaters have killed another fine young person for idiotic reasons, I wonder what I would do if my family was threatened. It's something of a hypothetical because I don't believe you can truly know what you would do until you actually find yourself in a situation like that. It's easy to say 'what if' when the danger is amorphous but when the wand is at your throat, things tend to be very different. I am no fool. I know that bravado and braggadocio rarely survive their first encounter with reality.
I don't know what it says about me but if I could guarantee that Oberon, Rose and Puck would be permitted to escape to somewhere safe and that Dulci and Del would protected or also permitted to leave then I would agree to just about anything, even to pledging my allegiance to the Death Eaters. I can't say I'm proud to say that but their safety is more important to me than anything else. I am no longer a young man. My wife is dead, my children grown and with children of their own. They are healthy, happy and successful. What more can a father ask for? If my sacrifice could ensure their safety then I would not hesitate.
I wonder sometimes how many among them have made the same decision. To take the risk on their own shoulders and the stain upon their own souls in order to protect those they love. Or are they all blind ideologues, willing to sacrifice their families and themselves on the altar of stupidity?
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